Monday, September 20, 2010

Deep inside My Heart

Well, I dont understand this. I wish that I could just escape from me, from everyone, from this. I know it's simple, it's too simple, I can't forget and it hurts. Will it ever just... go away from my mind? I'm trying, trying and keep trying, but what I get?

I feel bad for even speaking it. I should just keep this shit to myself. It's no one elses problem that I have feelings, just mine.
Unfortunately I've found a way, it can be a very slow process. But I'm not too sure about it. It's just waiting for the moment when my lord show me who "you-are"

I try so hard, NOT think about it, to not remember, to not wish. But in reality, I always do.
It never fails that with every waking breath and step I take, you're there.
I don't know I find myself or just hiding from myself, lying to myself just to make it through my everyday. Well it just doesnt work like that. hahaha i'm mad. I spend my days with stir up my memories. S-T-U-P-I-D

Well the truth of the matter is, in short, I CAN'T run from you. I can't run from my addictions. And I most certainly can't run when you ARE the addiction.

You may not be here with me but thoughts of you are always in my hearts.

Oh i'm so lame.

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